I was a small kid back then, may
be studying in my second class, when there was a tape recorder in our home. A
rigid body with a metallic skin sat right in the middle of the showcase in the
drawing hall. Back in those times, this scene was one that will be beating today’s
scene of a drawing hall with 42 inch plasma shining in the drawing hall.
Being a naughty kid, which I was
then, I used to hide from everyone and stealing a chance, I would silently slid
in a cassette, press the only red button on top the metallic body and blurt out
my mind in all the voices I could get out of my small mouth. Then I would
quickly press a button which said ‘Rewind’
on it and then merrily listen to what I blurted out and enjoy myself.
This used to be one of my
favorite pastimes in those days!
Few days back, when I was alone,
sitting on my bean bag, staring the lemon yellow colored wall, which was duller
than my mood then, I had my mind just like a grinder grinding each and every
thought that was sailing few minutes back. As it is known, the duller the
thought, the hotter it is and just like any other hot liquid, it floats up and
keeps banging the head from within.
I too had few of such thoughts
banging the inner walls of the grey room of my body. Suddenly then, I saw the
metallic body, the same metallic body that had been my friend in my melancholiness.
The picture was bit blur, may be because of the dull colored wall or even may
be because of the innumerable thoughts being grinded at no specific speed. But
yet, that silver colored bright button glittered, just like a silver ring on
the fair finger of a cute girl and the wordings ‘Rewind’ were still clear just like they were, years back!
A sudden thought came to my mind,
but it had to wait at the bottom of the playlist until I played all the
memories of my childhood till college days that were meowing like drowning cat.
Burying all my other thoughts, I
decided to take a silent break and spend some time remembering my long lost
friend. Immediately a number of memories, all of them sweet, sprung up from the
bottom of my heart. Few memories from home, few on cricket ground, few with
girlfriends, few riding on bike, few whiling lazily at bike stands and few
laughing merrily with friends. Many of such scenes played on the stage of my
brain while I sat on the front seat with mouth wide open.
After a long time it felt nice.
The time silently passed like a silver cloud on the light blue sky without
disturbing anything but still proving its presence. I sat up straight on the
same bean bag and refreshed my memories.
Relishing my memory cells in my brain
now was the turn of the thought that was struggling for its turn.
The Rewind Button!!
The caption looked catchy but the
content seemed surprising. How could I leave you, my dear Sunday Readers, while
walking through this thought? So here it is…
When the thought sailed up to the
top of the playlist through the hurdles and the long wait, the first thing that
came to my mind was the metallic body that stood majestically in every home
back in the 90’s. I am not sure of the earlier years because I was not born and
I don’t care!
The tape recorder! What a
beautiful device it was. We could play any music which we wanted from it.
Listen to radio as well. Upon all, record our own voices and replay them
multiple times.
What if our own human body is put
on a comparison board with this metallic body? Both would match at utmost
everything except the human body would beat that poor tape recorder in two
aspects – it keeps on eating and keeps on talking. The poor tape recorder on
the other hand, speaks only when it is asked for and eats some of the
electrical energy. But yes, it gets highlighted we come down one thing on the
final aspect – the silver button, the rewind button.
Yes, in a tape recorder we have a
rewind button pushing which we can go back to any song any music any recording
and play it, again, and again. Do whatever you want; this is not available and
not possible in our body and our life.
What if even our body had got
that magical button? What if we could have that power; to rewind back and spin
into the time we wanted and replay that wonderful time and relive those moments
whenever we wanted.
Imagine a situation when you are
stuck in a traffic jam, helplessly sitting in a window seat of a city bus
inhaling the polluted gas from a vehicle standing with its ass just in front of
your nose. You would be left with no option but to fume out your anger on
everything except you. You now know you will have to spend 30 minutes of your
life in this situation doing nothing. Now just imagine, for a minute, your body
has a rewind button, say on your little finger, or may be on the back of your
neck, or may be let’s keep it on your arm which would make it easier to press.
You press it and zoooooooooom
comes a sound and a colored circle in front of your eyes. You see a screen
after that with a list of the moments you want to replay. Selecting one of
those, you go back to your school day. Back to your favorite cricket ground
playing cricket forgetting all the tensions in the world. Running under the
sun, sweating all over the field, catching the ball, throwing it to each other,
shouting to a fellow team mate, yelling at each other for silly mistakes,
fighting over every single run, playing your favorite shot, holding the bat
with pride. What a moment it is to relive. A 30 minute childhood cricket game
right in the middle of choking traffic jam.
Now just think of all the moments
you could relive – your first prize collection, your first day in college, your
first crush, the moment when your grandma told you bed time stories, the moment
when you hit your first six, when you were the hero of the colony, when you
went for the first trip with your best buddies, when you celebrated a team
victory, your college parking lot, the college style, the college heroism, the
first job, the first salary and many more. Just think what not you can relive.
The weekend walks in and zoom…
You would run into your childhood. Or say, you would go back to the moment you
spent with your crush.
The whole world would be magical.
It would be the best life. Enjoy any moment you think would be useless. There
would be no need to be unhappy of missing anything back in our journey.
I then quickly listed out all of
the moments in my life that I could relive instead of sitting with my dullest
mood. Then I thought of every moment that I would replace with every other. It
felt nice, but only for a few minutes. Then it seemed something like a life
wherein I would be eating only sweet dish for my every meal. It would taste
sweet for the first meal, then seems fine with the second, but as it goes on my
tongue would get pissed off.
A meal should be a plate with
every item of every other taste. Only that would make it complete meal and a
perfect meal.
A life is very similar to a meal.
All tastes and all experiences are a must. Moreover, few meals are one time meals.
Meant to be eaten once and just remember them.
Memories are also pretty much the
same. They are meant to be kept in our memories, to be remembered, to be
cherished. They shouldn’t be rewinded and relived again and again, that would
only wipe off their distinctiveness. They would no longer be our sweet
memories. They would no longer haunt us in our depressed times and bring smile
upon our sullen face. It's better to smile childishly sitting in that damn thick rubber-ed bus seat than to go back and play cricket. Right?
Memories are meant to be
cherished, remembered, enjoyed, smiled over… They shouldn’t repeat…
Same is the case with each and
every distinct experience that we go through. They are all meant to be once in
a lifetime. Shouldn’t be rewinded as and when wanted but should be only
remembered and smiled on.
Save your memories deep in your
heart… Remember them… Smile as you remember… It’s better than reliving them…
Happy Memories!!!
Vishal…