Amid lot of confusion and fuss
and noise in the K row and few noises coming in from the row behind me, I
quickly stepped again towards my seat, this time just more carefully and sat,
at last, in my seat. Just by one single moment of holding the coke glass in my
hand I could easily say that half of the Coke had been spilt. Somehow managing
my nerves to calm down a bit I settled down in the seat still thinking of the
person who had not yet abused me or beaten me up for the mess I had created. By
few looks from the corner of my eyes I knew it was a girl and that had
frightened me just a little more but for any sake I wanted to settle down in my
seat, stopping all the mess that I was creating there, before I looked at
anyone or talked to anyone or apologized to anyone.
When I felt the movie had started
and the whole audience drowned in the movie and I settled peacefully in the
seat such that no more mess could occur, I slowly turned to my left. Blinking
my eyes few more time and concentrating my stare on that face dint help. I was
the same face I had seen in the lift. It was the same girl with an uneasy frightened
look in her face. I can never know if it was the look in her face, or her
frightened eyes, or the mess I had created, or the uncomfortable situation I
had put her in, or the coke bath, or her bag on which I had stepped, or what
not, but there was something in her face that kept my eyes glued to it.
I kept on staring her face, a
cute little round face with chubby cheeks and a small little nose. The eyes
were little but sharp edged and kept staring the large screen of the theatre. Her
pink lips glowed, thanks to that lip gloss, in the reflection of the light
coming from that screen. Even after
trying my best, a couple of times, not to keep my eyes glued onto her face and
get back into the movie, I failed. I failed until her sixth sense, which is
always powerful with girls, tweaked her alerting of me staring at her. She
suddenly turned to her right. Being seated in the neighboring seat, our faces
were closer than a safe distance and as it had to happen there was an eye lock between
us.
Only after she blinked and
readjusted herself in her seat and turned to the screen I released what I had
done and what I was still doing. Without waiting for her to turn back to me, I
blabbered, loud enough for her to hear me out, “Am very sorry, Maam”
With the four words out of my
mouth, I quietly turned to the screen and fixed my eyes to the screen deciding
I would never ever turn back at her. The movie continued with its pace and ups
and downs but my heart was still focused on something else. It turned out a little
difficult for me to handle it this time but it settled down for a deal till
interval.
As soon as the interval word got
displayed on the screen and before the lights were turned on, my heart sent in
a strong signal to my eyes that turned to the left and stared at her. She was
still looking at the screen. Turning back to my front I decided not to look
back at her anymore. I had stared enough and any more stare would just mean
bad. I had even apologized for the mess I had created. But I was not sure if
she had heard it. But atleast I had apologized and ended the matter. But it
felt good to reconfirm and apologize again. But there was absolutely no need of
that.
My heart was beating fast in this
confusion that kept me busy the whole interval not even allowing me to talk to
my friend seated next to me, who without my permission gulped down the
remaining half of my coke. If it felt to me, sometimes, to apologize to her
again only because of the mess I had created, other times it felt to me, that I
was being attracted towards her and my heart was getting too much bothered and
involved in this.
A lot of thinking and checking
out of a list of pros and cons when finally I decided to take another chance
and look at her and apologize again if she was looking at me or else leave the
matter then and there from my hands, I turned to my left, I found the empty
seat waiting for my eyes.
To be continued…
Vishal…
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